Down these twenty
five years, life has been offering me lots of experience most of them
unconsciously and some consciously .There had been never a shortage for information
from people around me and things that happened around me to clutter my mind.
I put tons of energy
to make convictions, every conviction I make fail at some point of time later
and this shows the kind of ignorance that has crept into mind while making
decisions. Here is a famous quote “ Whatever is not under our experience, doesn’t
exist in reality is the crown of ignorance “
Economist had tons of
theories to their credit and now most famous economic theories fail because of
the fact that they predicted based on “ Cetris Paribus “ which means “everything
else remains constant”, but in reality it doesn’t work that way.
Same applies for the
human life’s, Sigmund Freud said Human beings are irrational - something that
holds good for a particular situation or particular person may not hold good
even for the next moment or next person. Human being behaves according to the
needs, moods, outcomes and humpty number of other factors as a human being is
not a gadget to be consistent in the way he/she emote or behave.
With this baseline,
for the past five to six years I have been a perfect Good Bad Ugly boy on this
earth doing the most prettiest to the nastiest things possible for me on this Earth
and I have never claimed myself as good guy.
People start scaling
others based on their perceptions, value systems, what they believe to be good and
bad on this according to them on this world based on the situations, experiences
and people they encountered in their life. But it’s important for everyone to understand
the fact that the world doesn’t offer same kind of opportunities, situations,
people for every one on this earth. Everybody encounters a unique set of all
these and the perceptions, values, beliefs, good and bad are outcome of this.
In my recent times I never
wanted me to try behaving or altering my personality in a certain way based
upon the needs of the society, because whenever I do that I am going to act. A
human being can’t act for long time and hence I always wanted to provoke & blossom
the way of being human.
For me being human is
nothing but being inclusive .Inclusiveness for me means accepting people, situation
at hand as they are and then trying to act on it in a way i am considerate
about .
I never want my loved
ones to get into a judgement mode instead perceive me as I am … Prediction
models doesn’t work on me as I myself complex by nature. Whether your prediction models predict me as good ,bad, insane,
weak, strong or fair doesn’t really matter for me, I would stay by you whole
lifetime to perceive your presence and touch your life by some means instead of
trying to fail by judging you.
For a moment I am good
and the very next moment I am nasty – Better don’t make convictions on me ..I
might not betray you but for sure your convictions !!!
