Tonz of thoughts in my mind..

All these days enjoying round the clock with full of those College day ,Farewell days,Ooty trekking,Moonar tours and those long lasting memories of my last days at the college.Just today i stuck up with the idea of blogging since i was pretty down.Though all these days the outsets of my mind was full of zeal with all those mind blowing friends,accolades for placement team,the opportunity to speak in the farewell,those cruises with my friends to ooty ,moonar and wat not..Now do i realise there is inner core of mind which was pricking me always for hurting my friends .. its says "you are deriving pleasure by hurting many" ...Am nt I making justification to my friendship....My heart is pricking me for not contributing to my final year project..This moment questions me whether do you deserve all these joy ,zeal,fun and frolic ...If i deserve all these it should have nurtured me to be at great heights and inturn full of greater spirits kindiling the soul in pursuit of excellence.why it pulls me down so much..making me like the only soul who doesnt deserve the real tint of happiness..Oh God ! My saviour answer me - Do I deserve a Ray of hope by filling myself with real happiness derived from not hurting others,justifying my responsibilities - If so do bless me with the Wisdom for that..Show some light upon on my life and let the light be glowing forever ,make me too shine in the days to come.I dont want you to make me shine but just give me the power , Let I make myself shine.